Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Life just moves forward


I am officially back to work. I am only working 4 days a week per doctor's orders, which I am thankful for. By Friday of each week, I am wishing it was only 3 days a week. It is great to be back and to catch up with all of my co-workers. I don't think I realized how much I missed everyone until I saw them again! With each day, it gets easier to be there, so I am hoping by the first of the year I will back in the flow of things. They all say I used to run the place, but right now I feel like a big bump on a log!
Today I went and met with a physical therapist regarding this lymphedema stuff. I will start actual therapy on Monday morning, so I am hoping the swelling will decrease and my hand will stop hurting. I will have to wear a sleeve and glove when I do things like exercise or fly or anything that gets my blood pumping! I won't actaully write what I am thinking right now! Anyway, I am looking forward to therapy because I think I will benefit so much from it.
The most crazy thing I did this week was sign up to be a Girls Scout leader. I took Carra to the Daisy Scout Teddy Bear Tea and I just couldn't help myself. I had to sign up. It will be a lot of work, but it will be a blast. I am actually co-leading with a gal I met at the tea. She seems really nice and I think we will get along great. So, I will be hitting all of you up this Spring for cookies! Start saving your money, because I expect you to buy a lot!
I am still trying to train for the breast cancer 3 day. The walk is in about 5 weeks and I am not ready! I got so burned out on the walking thing. Not to mention, when I walk my arm swells! But, NO EXCUSES! I should be walking! I am really looking forward to being there, especially with my team. I just love all of my Hags and I know we are going to have a great time. I need to start focusing on what to pack.
As far as the rest of me goes, well, I am about the same. I am so happy with my family and quite frankly happy to just be alive, but I am also really conflicted on the inside. I know my life's purpose is supposed to be something else, but I don't know what that is. For those of you who know me well, it may surprise you to hear that I just don't want to be around a lot of people anymore. I have worked in the service field my whole life and now I just want to be home. But, I also want to be paid, so I am kinda screwed there! I am hoping to figure out exactly what I want to be doing sometime soon. Until then, I just take one day at a time and hope for the best. Maybe I should write that book I have always talked about. Cheers!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Glad to read that your back at work and your complaints are back to normal like the rest of us. May sound odd but reading about everyday ins and outs makes me happy for you! It's about life, not cancer - hooray! Eric's sister is waiting for her second round of test results, they didn't like her blood work results and are looking at some other things. Seeing you kick your cancer's ass makes me keep positive thoughts for her. Oh yeah, love the Cara's new friend, Maddie. She's a doll! Reminds me of this little boy that used to run around my house when I was growing up! LOL

Sending warm fuzzies for your walk!

Denise