(had to take out the c word!) tomorrow

So, round 4 is tomorrow morning. I am dreading this one more than the others. I don't really know why. I start weekly treatments in a few weeks and that will last a year. I can't stand the thought of going to the office every week for a year. I love everyone there, but shit. There is only so much a person can take! Well, my mom came down again. What would I do without her. She helps so much with the kids. She and I have already had a little retail therapy. She went with me today to visit Dr. McHottie. Hopefully he will never read this. Anyway, he is a dream. Lost my train of thought. All I can think about is how he was looking at me today while he was filling my boob. (I know he loves me.) He must! Oh God, I am whacked. Now all I can say in my head is He Must, He Must, He Must increase My Bust! That is too frickin funny. I crack myself up, and I haven't taken any of the good drugs yet! Needless to say, he is so cute. He finished filling my expander today. Now we just wait until radiation is finished and then we can proceed with finishing my breasts. I am walking around with one natural, sagging into the armpit, nipple pointing to toes breast and one larger, standing at attention, no nipple to cause embarrassment fake boob! I look great naked! The new boob actually looks fantastic. I am so happy with his work. I recommend him to anyone that is considering plastic surgery. And like my girlfriend says: "Just go in for a consult and he will feel you up!" Worth the money! Love to all. Rich, you are in my thoughts daily.